Heartbreak

Days to keep my heart: 1st june to 22 jan 2010.. Beautiful memories is all i have now. Today is the 3rd day since we broke up.. i've been feeling so down and in a daze since that day. Til today i know i have to let go and move on with life, easier said than done. but i decided to pour out my feelings through blogging from now on so i do not need to keep everything inside me at the very least i say out what i feel inside me letting it all out.

These few days time seem to pass so slow.. The journey i took to anywhere seem longer than usual.. the feeling of being alone is so scary now as l look around me. i hope i will get used to u asap. i promise to all of u who cares and are worried for me that i will be strong no matter what.Ytd charmaine told me these and i'm so touched til i'm lost for words. she said she wouldn't expect me to give up nor forget abt her now cos its still 7months after all and not just 7days. its definitely heartbreaking but everyone will someday stand up and live life to the fullest and i should really love myself the most and be selfish just this once. there's many out there who care so much for me like jintong and got to hurry get back on my feet. dom't just look back and regret, look towards the future. it hurts and it hurts like fuck but its the fact that i'm being this way is sooo not going to change anything. love and r/s is sth that cannot be recipocrated, its not how much that u put in or what u do to determine how u want the outcome to be so yeah first don't avoid the fact, stay home,look at her stuffs and just think of the happy times and keep it as a beautiful memory. its just that she's not meant to be mine and eventually what's meant to be mine will come in my life. and u noe, cry! cry til my heart's content and promise myself not to ever cry over this again and i can do it. i just need time to get over it spend more time with others. nothing is too hard. i definitely feel so lost now bcos its so fresh and everything just happened so fast and i'm human i can't get over everything in a day! i got feelings i just need to give myself time! and of cos i loved her she was such a huge part of my life so its only normal that i feel this way. charmaine told me not to hold my emotions just let it all out and try to focus on sth. like joyce said to me move on, there's more to life focus on my goals instead or brooding over a r/s and like jintong said i'll definitely be able to overcome this bad patch of mine easily and i got to take the risk and have faith that things will work out beautifully for me and i have to knw that i'm not alone cos u all my friends will always be there for me!

Thanks everyone that send me words of encouragement and i'm gratefully for that really!