happpyyyyyyyyyyy

i'm lost of what else to say what else to write.. nevertheless today i managed to read a BOOK! its abt how u put yourself into happiness something like that lah.. There's no definite way to achieve happiness.. All of us each one each day are looking like everywhere to achieve it but all of us are like failed to realise that happiness is actually within us deep inside ourselves. So i got to start looking at myself. to take things in my stride.

Love

How do u knw if you love the person?
1) you don't mind being with the person 24hrs yet still have the urge to see the person
2) you don't mind letting your friends curse and swear at you for being together with the person
3) you don't mind doing things that the person like you to do even though you may hate it
4) you would like to hug and kiss the person whenever you can
5) you don't mind spending time on the person knowing that you have something more urgent to do
6) you don't mind being poor with the person
7) you are no longer lazy when it comes to the person
8) you use your heart to do things for the person
9) to be continued

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Sometimes its funny how they are able to be blinded by all the little things you put your heart into just to make them see how much you love them. And at the end of the day, they walk away without even caring how hard u are crying in your room due to this excruciating pain you feel in your heart even when you are not bleeding..

Keeping inside

hmmmm.. i know myself best.. i knw i will keep it inside my heart.. though at times it seem ridiculous but my heart is just too soft hearted.. to make it known, to make things clearer. I'm giving myself excuses now but bottom line is i have set a time frame for everything and i mean it.

arghhhh

Fuck big time!!!!!!!!!!

Boiling point

Eventually water will boil when it reach a certain temperature.. same goes for my patience my endurance level.. Eventually it will fade eventually the time will come.. constantly its rising and at the verge of boiling over already yet it still haven't reach the breaking point yet. Deeeeeeeep in meaning!

refresh

I went through my friends' blogs and i realised what i actually have done recently.. For example when i read abt this, i'm shocked and touched at the same time.. Someone felt weird talking to me for the first time.. how strange the feeling was.. and to think that had lost a friend. I clearly knew the answer to that and now that i know abt this, i will choose to let it be.. IT is just so strange isn't it? I shall not explain.. U can try not to talk to me u can try to take it as u lost a friend. But i'm touched that no matter what u hear, see or sense, u will still imagine who u used to know.. This is what i called true friends in a way.. they are there for u no matter what and stand by you as always and even bother to care what matters to me.. I'm sorry to anyone who feels the way.. sincerely.. i don't deserve that anyway.. Just spending my time refreshing things that happened in my life so far, i'm proud to say i do have many great friends and thanksssssss lotsssssss

Song written

Because of you my life become so colourful.
Never thought that it would be such as meaningful.
A smile on your face, a word from your phrase,
would simply melt my heart all day.

Every day with you always seems to end so fast.
Hoping that time will stop for me and always last.
However i want, tomorrow to come, to share my future life with you.

Life is always full of different surprises,
No one will know what will happen in the next sunrise.
I'm willing to risk next minute to be with u.
May it be joy or sorrow, i would not regret, never will i.
I don't wanna lose you never all my life.
Life is named meaningless, the day i found myself away from you.

Life goes on

phew. i got to live a new life soon...

Sickening truth

I knew the truth now. Moreover it hurts me even deeper... deeper than all of u can imagine. It will surely affect me for the rest of my life! Haunting me forever and ever.. i could just fall now and no longer have any energy and motivation to pull myself up anymore. The extremeeeee pain that is being inflicted on me will nvr ever go away and i will bring it to my grave one day when i die. all of u that care might ask what is the truth that i actually refering to.. i will never ever tell anyone abt it no matter what. i will accept it in my heart and take it as a stab in my heart and i will remember the pain!!!!!!!!!!!! i can just assume that nobody can withstand this sort of misery and pain NOBODY!!!!! NBCB KNN!

Numb

Life goes on.. Worklife goes on.. everything seems to be normal and fine again. I seem to accept everything that comes along but am i in pain? like i cannot sleep until i damn tired, like i always have no appetite even though i have yet to eat, like just how i read my notes how i read papers how i surf net how i blog i could just stare and fall into a daze state. i can't continue........ :(